Nova monologues: Screw Collector
Saturday, November 14th, 2009
Sally is the type of person who keeps everything. An ex-shopaholic and makeup junkie, she keeps the boxes of used makeup, cosmetic containers, clothing that she’s outgrown but hopes to fit in again, stuff that she’s bought (at a good price!) but haven’t yet gotten found a place to wear them yet, like the gold spandex skinny jeans/pants/leggings. And oh, the shoes. Like those with the transparent glitter-filled heels, or the clothes from her overweight phase that she keeps as a reminder never to fit in again. Not that she’s her ideal weight now, but at least she’s not that size again, she thinks to herself.
Soup jars, juice bottles, margarine containers, loose screws that she found around the apartment, she keeps them all because, just like her life, she plans to get it all back together again, someday. She has a cupboard full of documented memories; photos, christmas and birthday cards, love letters and hate mail she wrote but never sent, everything from since the age of 5.
Every few years or so, she’d go through a phase where she tells herself that she’s going to get rid of all that ‘crap’ that is laying around the apartment. Determined to make her space lighter, she’d meticulously go through every thing that she owns for days, only to find some justification why everything needs to be kept. In her head, she understands that she doesn’t need them, but in her soul she believes that she really does. After all, she can’t abandon it like that; it’s her life, an eclectic collection that sums up the long journey that it took for her to get here. Her biography.
Yet sometimes she can’t help but wonder if all this clutter from the ‘good ole days’ helps her to stay true to herself, or hinder her from moving forward, obstructing her view of the present at least decent times or of the great ones to come.
Sometimes we need to release ourselves from the past. It may not only be the bad memories, but it can also be the good ones that we hold on to so tightly to that keep us from experiencing life as it is and creating new ones. I’ve read somewhere that the human brain is capable of creating an immeasurable number of memories, of making an infinite number of mental network connections, if only we let it. If only we are actively present in the moment long enough to have our brain make a mental note; for the brain remembers not fleeting activities, but rather those that have someway impacted us.
Our past isn’t going anywhere, it’s there to stay. Chances are that we will be subconsciously reminded of them anyway, so there is no need to force the issue. Why not clean up our emotional and physical space to make way for the abundance of blessings that is sure to come our way?
Now about those glitter-filled heels…
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now ? i thought we werent gonna talk about me *pout*
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I guess there’s a little bit of Sally in everybody. Besides, this can’t be you mami. You ROCK your glitter-filled heels
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I guess there is a little bit of Sally in everyone. Besides, this can’t be you mami. You ROCK your glitter-filled heels
Take the Infection Control poll on the homepage here:
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